For a long time I pled

“WHY do you say you’re sorry

for hitting until the eyes of my heart

are black and blue?

WHY do you ask for forgiveness

like a man just learning two plus two?

So you can tell me how to live my life??

Act like I am still your wife??

After six years

WHY come back??

Distract, attack

pull me down to your size again and again and again

But but but WHY

and then ..

instead -But who

ARE you?

and where do you stop to sit and stand ?

Is there a pulse within your hand

within the spaces between your fingers when you go to spell your name?

silence

and finally after listening awhile

to the place where your heart is supposed to beat

I pick up my own questions , throw them out to sea